I'd lived the contents and it was time to move on. As long as I sat on the book, I knew I would still linger emotionally, mentally, and psychologically in a season that was over. It was time to finally let go of the pains, the disappointments, the exepctations, the ambitions, who I thought I was or wanted to be, that season of life. It was time to close that chapter and book, to write a new book, to live a new life, the life I've dreamed about, much of which is still unknown, but still I knew it's time...
It's like when I took the NC bar exam. It was 2009 and Amira had begun declining in health. I was teaching, but getting bored and disliking my boss. I knew it was time to do something different. I studied and had taken and passed one bar exam in 2005, but the summer of 2009 everything that could happen happened. Doctors visits, family members visiting, death in the family and amongst friends, you name it! Then the day of the exam, I sat down at the table and across from me sat a familiar face, a friend that I went to law school with years ago.
During lunch breaks we recounted the law and discussed the very things that ended up on the exam. I felt confident, but still this was no ordinary test and leaving the faigrounds on the last day of the test I had a flat tire, of all things! Months later, I found out I passed and I knew it was the grace and divine providence of God. Someone asked me how I did it because they had been out of law school a while and was thinking about taking the bar. I told them, I just knew it was time. Looking back, I saw that in spite of the adversity and chaos I dealt with while studying that summer, God had already orchestrated and set me up for success.
So, I tell you, today, "It's time!" Get over it (whatever your "it" is)! Get it out (that idea, that project, those words)! Move forward! Don't wait any longer. Don't ignore those promptings! If you keep observing the wind, you will not sow! (Ecclesiastes 11:4) If there's a dream inside of you, do it! The life you want to live, live it! If you know there's greater, pursue it and you will find it! Let the pains and disappointments go so you can grow and fulfill what only you can fulfill. God has already appointed your provision and ordered your steps, the certain and uncertain ones. Just go! Don't be moved by the opposition you'll face, the naysayers, the limitations. It's time! It's your time! Stop reading about it and be about it! Close the book!